Let me be a kid once more

Saturday, January 24, 2009

its so cliche.
everybody's gettin it when im the one who wanted it in the first place.
tsk.
forget it.
i'll get something better.
dun wanna be a copycat.

Friday, January 23, 2009

yesterday :
we had dinner together , just the five of us .
its been sooooo long , i have ta admit i miss it.
the nvr ending chatters , the laughters , cooking and cleaning up together .
i've been slowly neglecting them .

i took off today cos we wanted ta eat steamboat together.
we had it all planned .
friday , just for you, even when giraffe needed me ta work .
but life aint fair you see .

it was scary .
i was worried sick.
i thought i was gonna lose you.
there's soooo many things im not ready ta take over.
i was afraid ta face it .

seven hours of ordeal .
i could have lost ma mind.

you looked so fragile , so weak .
it seems like you've lost weight.
i know i've been saying that you've put on weight but looking at how you were doing , made me took it all back.
i would rather you've put on tons of weight and be healthy rather than being skinny and unhealthy.

thank you hannah , kl and matt .
thanks for understanding how i felt.
thanks for those encouraging words.
thanks for caring.
i love you three.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

HANNAH is always ma favvvvvvv shopping spree partner! (:
she makes me buy stuffs without lookin twice at the price .
and thats the best, let me repeat, BEST thing for a retail therapy.
you like it , you just get it. ((:
and she can shop like there's no tmr. seriously.
nadii and i left her for 5 mins ta go ta the shop beside hers ta check out on studs since im in dire needs for studs.
and when she came back ta find us , she bought one freaking dress lah.
fucking fast righhttt.

and our mission ta get NADIAH a new wardrobe failed miserably. ):
she was so hesitant to try out on anything.
she even called calyn ta help her out .
tsk tsk.
and please call nadiah out when you're goin shopping!
she's in need of some shopping trg. really!
she was tired of walking before we even had our shopping spree started. LOL
that lazy pig!

i bought this decent high waist skirt that even ma mom didnt complained about.
i was stunned for once.
normally , whenever i bought a high waist short or some mini shorts , she'll nagg and nagg and nagg saying im wasting money etc etc etc.
den when she looked at ma skirt , she went quiet. scarrrryyyyy.
hahaa.

im sorry that i haven been updating lately.
i feel very tired after work and i didnt have the energy ta even on ma lappy.
and i reach home pretty late everyday even when i have a ride home all the time.
i'll be having tons of openings next week so i'll most prolly be able ta update. (:

and ma bro's getting engaged this sun!
!@#$%(#$%^&

i swear i hate it.

its so unfair that you used ma weakness against me .

Thursday, January 15, 2009

me : im eatin snail now.

calyn: ????
how come ? you caught them downstairs?

me: ma mom cooked lah! damn nice!
you can get it anywhere.
ntuc and markets sell what. its e edible one. (:

calyn: hahahah!
its called escargots ma dear.
le french way . xP

me: i know its snail can already.

i sounded damn bimbotic can!
tsk.

i haven been updating righttttt!
i know i know.
have been a workaholic . so sorry about that.

it feels weird not being broke since i was always, at this point of time.
retarded right.
i clubbed once this month , and i stil have two more ongoings coming.
))):
it totally ruined ma once a month clubbing principles lah.

ive been working like i have 5 kids ta raise back at home , that i've been neglecting ma frens.
i miss them.
though i see a few of them at work , it's diff from hanging out.
i need some retail therapy here!!!
and girls night out nvr fail ta brighten up ma life.

calyn ! we have our steak date yo!
after this sat okayyyyy. (:

hannah! we have our ring date yo!
and some retail therapy together again! (:
oh yeah! and registering our license!!

clara! we need some drinking date yo!
or supper date! anything that comes first. heh (:

colleen! i miss you slut!
shoppinggggggg okay!!! or movies!!! (:

nadiah! we have ta go gym-ing already!!!
lose some kilooooos ! (:

yunhao! i miss your nonsense can!
hang out hang out hang out!

janice! we stil have our belated xmas date lah!!
book me in advance okay!!

i miss you lil sluts alot!
we shall have a girls night out babes!
soon soon soon! (:

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

i've been resting at home for two days.
have been working without having any off day for consecutive 62436721 days now.
being broke is a pain in the ass . its a lucky that i'll have one more day left ta suffer. (:

ma supp paper is in eleven days time and i haven started on any chapters yet.
hahaa!
i guess i really have ta start chiong-ing ta pass it.

ynoe , sometimes , when we walked ard anywhere , esp town , we get ta see diff kinds of couples.
there are those really fat couples or very hot couples. and there are some that is better looking than the other.
like maybe , the girl is the hotter one while the guy is e nerdy one.
or the guy is the new urban male kind of guy and the girl is some fat nobody.
that sorta things .
and we always criticize them and say if the guy/girl is blind ta like their partner.

well , now i really actually understand perfectly on the term love is blind.
its not the looks that matter.
when you get ta know and understand a person deeper, you'll find that person grows better looking day by day.
its like the personality shine through the physicality .

i've been happy and enjoying life pretty much right now.

before ,
you suddenly barged back into ma life telling me things that i would want ta hear so badly.
sadly darling , i dun feel any thing right now.
the feelings are no longer there.
and how dare you come back ta say all this nonsense after i took a lil while ta settle ma emotions, ta put the guards up against that vulnerability.
how dare you , ta try sashaying back into ma life as if nothing had happened.
flirting does not get you anywhere near my vulnerability so back off!
i've learn from ma mistakes , there's no point in this.

and then ,
ta be really cared for by somebody feels really great.
i already have one now.

so you can back off and die sweetheart.
i dun need you anymore.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

39.2 degrees .

im like a walking heater.
cool huh.