i remember ahpek sitting beside me in class , motivating me ta listen during math lessons.
i remember how much i used ta hate math lessons. anything that has ta do with math.
(i still hate it now)
i remember melvin sitting in front row , in front of ahpek , and zijie in front of me.
i remember gengfai sitting behind me with benjamin and janice behind them stucked e whole yr with the two outcast. (marwa and elaine)
i remember gengfai and melvin spouting nonsense and their lame jokes, entertaining me e whole time and zijie sleeping in class the whole day.
i remember janice switching place ta sit with melvin and ahpek moving seats to be with syafiq during biology.
i remember how fun it was in school.
how fun it was ta stay with the friends you are so used to seeing that you've grown to be so comfortable ard. how loved ma life has been.

i miss every lil things about it.

and now , lifes has turn out a lil differently.
i dunno why but there's this lil thing nudging me, telling me how UNimportant i am.
how lonely i've become.
im tired and on e verge of giving up.
shut up iza and stop ranting on about your pathetic life.

i think im dying soon.
i cough like an old auntie ever single day.
and ma mucus doesnt wanna come out no matter how swollen ma nose have been for trying to blow ma nose consistently.
and i've been scratching ma legs and i wun stop till it bleeds.
god , i think i've been possessed. literally.